http://www.dreamsandvisions.com/English
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More than dreams |
梦获重生 |
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The Story of Dini |
迪尼的故事 |
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While certain details have been altered for the sake of dramatization, the following true story has been carefully researched for authenticity, and is presented as it happened. |
本故事为真人真事改编，虽曾改动部分细节以达戏剧效果，但所有内容经仔细调查，证实真确无误 |
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Life – like any journey – involves stops along the way. |
生命就像任何一次旅程一样，一路上有许多的绎站 |
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Sometimes, there are detours, sometimes dead ends. |
有时候会遇到弯路，有时候是绝路 |
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And sometimes, beautiful and unexpected things happen. |
有时候美丽、意想不到的事情也会发生 |
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This is one such journey, the journey of my life. |
这就是一次这样的旅程，我生命的旅程 |
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My name is Dini Widyaningtias. |
我的名字叫迪尼温第尼亚斯 |
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I’m not an actress. |
我不是个演员 |
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I’m the real Dini of this story. |
我是这个故事的真实主人迪尼 |
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Now, let the journey begin. |
现在，让这次旅程开始吧 |
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I was on a business trip, taking the Jakarta-Yogyakarta express… |
我正因商务出差，搭乘雅加达至周贾卡塔的特快列车 |
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…when the train came to an unexpected stop. |
火车意外地停了下来 |
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Excuse me. |
打扰一下 |
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Why are we stopping here? |
我们为什么要停在这里？ |
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I don’t know, ma’am. There may be mechanical difficulty. |
我不知道，夫人，也许是机械故障 |
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Well, when are you going to know something? |
那你什么时候去打听一下呢？ |
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I’m going to ask the engineer, ma’am. |
我这就去问一下工程师，夫人 |
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You’re coming back, aren’t you? |
你会回来，是吗？ |
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Can you believe this? We’ll probably be stuck here all day. |
你能相信这吗？我们可能要整天困在这里 |
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And I can guarantee you that the air conditioning is going to give out. |
我敢保证冷气很快就会关掉 |
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Wait and see. |
等着瞧吧 |
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It’s already getting hot. |
已经变得越来越热了 |
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What do you see? |
你在看什么？ |
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They’re not going to make us get out here, are they? |
他们不会让我们到外面去吧，是吗？ |
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Imagine… |
想像 |
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What? Imagine what? |
什么？想像什么？ |
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I grew up here. |
我在这里长大的 |
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So, you know where we are. |
那么，你知道这是哪里了 |
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Gombong. |
港榜 |
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Gombong? |
港榜？ |
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And my sister is meeting me at Yogyakarta. When will we get there? |
我妹妹正在周贾卡塔等着接我，我们什么时候可以到那里？ |
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Where did that conductor go? |
那个列车员去哪儿了？ |
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FIFTEEN YEARS EARLIER |
十五年前 |
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Tedjo Kurniawan’s family? |
泰多库尼亚瓦的家属吗？ |
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Mrs. Kurniawan? |
你是库尼亚瓦太太吗？ |
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I’m Mrs. Kurniawan. |
我是库尼亚瓦太太 |
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Mr. Kurniawan has had a heart attack. |
库尼亚瓦先生得了心脏病 |
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A heart attack? |
心脏病？ |
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How? |
怎么样了？ |
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According to the report… |
根据病情报告 |
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We couldn’t understand what had happened. |
我们不能理解所发生的一切 |
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My father had been perfectly fine one moment… |
我父亲前一刻身体还是棒棒的 |
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…then ill with diarrhea and vomiting the next. |
接着就突然腹泻还有呕吐。 |
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Several hours after he was taken to the hospital, he had a heart attack. |
送到医院几个小时后他就得了心脏病 |
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He died just like that. |
他就那样死了 |
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I felt as if I had been struck by lightning. |
我感觉就像晴天霹雳一样击打着我 |
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We did out best to help Mr. Kurniawan, but… |
我们已经尽了全力来抢救库尼亚瓦先生，但 |
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…he’s passed away. |
他还是走了 |
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It’s impossible…impossible. Tedjo dead? It’s impossible. |
不可能…不可能的。泰多死了？不会的 |
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What will happen to my baby? |
我的孩子怎么办？ |
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We are sorry, ma’am. |
对不起，夫人 |
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Forgive us. |
请原谅我们 |
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I can’t accept this. |
我不能接受这个事实 |
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What should I do? |
我该怎么办？ |
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It’s alright, Sundari. It’s alright… |
没事的，桑达里，没事的 |
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There’s something I have to tell you. |
有些事我得告诉你 |
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My father had been having an affair with Aunt Sundari – my mother’s sister. |
我父亲过去一直跟桑达里阿姨－我母亲的妹妹－有婚外情 |
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She was eight months pregnant when my father died. |
我父亲去世的时候她已经有了八个月的身孕 |
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But that wasn’t all. My mother was also pregnant at the time. |
还不止如此，我母亲当时也怀孕了 |
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I didn’t know what to do, or where to turn. |
我不知道该何去何从 |
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My father had been my hero. |
我父亲在我心目中是个英雄 |
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Now, I felt betrayed. |
现在，我感觉被出卖了 |
7:56 |
Go ahead, sir! |
先生，请到前面！ |
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And I was worried about how our lives were going to turn out. |
我还担心我们的生活将怎么着落 |
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Ladies and Gentlemen, may God’s peace and blessings be upon you. |
女士们、先生们，愿真主的平安和祝福降临你们 |
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Peace to you. |
愿你平安 |
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I was twelve years old and the oldest of five children… |
我当时十二岁，是五个孩子中最大的 |
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…and now my mother was pregnant. |
现在我母亲又怀孕了 |
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She wasn’t a working woman. How were we going to live? |
她没有工作。我们靠什么生活？ |
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I hope you will forgive him. |
我希望你们能宽恕他 |
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I assume responsibility for any wrongdoing on his part. |
我愿为他的任何错误行为承担责任 |
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May God’s blessings be upon you all. |
愿真主的祝福降临你们所有人 |
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I suppose Aunt Sundari had it worse. |
我想桑达里阿姨更糟 |
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I wouldn’t have thought so at the time. |
我当时不会这样想 |
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Because of the affair with my father, and her pregnancy, she fell into disgrace. |
因为与我父亲的奸情曝光，加上又怀孕了，她掉进了耻辱的深渊 |
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She left Gombong, not knowing where to go. |
她离开了港榜，不知道哪里去 |
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I did give Wulandari some advice, though. |
我确实给过乌兰达里一些建议 |
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Well, what happened? |
那你怎么说？ |
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I pointed out that abortion is one way to handle the situation. |
我指出堕胎是解决困境的一种方法 |
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We have to be realistic, you know. |
你知道，我们必须现实一点 |
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- By the way, have you heard? |
－顺便问一下，你们听说过吗？ |
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Tedjo had a second mistress. |
泰多还有一个情妇 |
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A second mistress? |
还有一个情妇？ |
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A seamstress over by Bandung. |
万隆的一个女裁缝 |
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Where did you hear that? |
你从哪里听来的？ |
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Atin Sinjaya… Her cousin who came over yesterday, she told me. |
阿亭斯家亚…她的堂妹，昨天过来了，是她告诉我的 |
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Which cousin is that? |
哪一个堂妹？ |
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The one married to that taxi driver… |
就是嫁给了那个的士司机的这个 |
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The chickens and the fighting cocks should fetch a handsome price. |
小鸡和好斗的公鸡应该有一个很不错的价钱 |
10:03 |
She must have had a lot of money. |
她一定有了很多的钱。 |
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And that doesn’t include the photography studio. |
这还不包括那个摄影棚的收入呢 |
10:09 |
I never knew your brother was such an accomplished photographer. |
我从不知道你哥哥是这么一位有成就的摄影师 |
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My brother had a lot of skills, actually. |
我哥实际上非常的多才多艺 |
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Especially with the ladies. |
尤其是对付女人有一套 |
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Who doesn’t know about Tedjo Kurniawan? |
谁不知道泰多库尼亚瓦的大名呢？ |
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He could get any woman he wanted. |
只要他想得到的女人没有不得手的 |
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We’ll see what happens to the family. The one with the problem is Sundari. |
我们要看看这个家成什么样了，桑达里就是一个成问题的人 |
10:38 |
I don’t know what she’s going to do. |
我不知道她会做什么 |
10:40 |
She’ll be knocking on your door soon, I suppose, looking for a handout. |
我想很快她就会敲你家门，祈求一点施舍 |
10:47 |
Who else can she ask for help? Will she come to me? |
她还能向其他人祈求帮助吗？她难道会到我家来吗？ |
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I don’t think so. |
我可不这么认为 |
10:56 |
I agree with you. She’ll come to my house, alright. |
我同意你的说法。她将会来我家，不错 |
10:59 |
But if she meets my wife at the door, that’s as far as she’s going to get. |
但如果她在门口遇到了我的妻子，那她只有在门口止步 |
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The very people we were counting on to help us said cruel things. |
正是那些我们指望能帮助我们的人说着残酷无情的话 |
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At that point, I didn’t know what to do. |
那时，我真不知该怎么办 |
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I felt only God could save us. |
我觉得唯有真主可以拯救我们 |
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You were just a child. |
你还只是一个孩子 |
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I never went back to that field. |
我从没有再回到那个地方 |
11:42 |
When my father’s pension finally came through, we moved to Semarang. |
当我父亲的抚恤金最终发下来之后，我们迁移到了三宝垄 |
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My mother opened a small store next to the house to make ends meet. |
我母亲在我家隔壁开了一个小商店以补贴家用 |
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But it was always a struggle. |
但生活还是很艰难 |
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Eventually, she decided to put up for adoption… |
最后，她决定将孩子给别人收养 |
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…two of my sisters and one of my brothers. |
我的两个妹妹和一个弟弟都送人 |
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I heard things were worse for Aunt Sundari. |
我听说桑达里阿姨的境况更加糟糕 |
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After her son was born, she moved to Sukorharjo to live with my grandmother. |
她儿子出生之后，就移居到了苏科哈，跟我的外祖母一起生活 |
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Two years went by. |
两年过去了 |
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Difficult years… |
艰难的岁月 |
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Bambang is a bastard! An ugly, little bastard! |
班邦，狗杂种！一个丑陋的小杂种！ |
13:06 |
Go! Go! Leave us alone! |
去！去！别惹我们！ |
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Aren’t you going to do something? |
你们怎么不管一管？ |
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These are your children! |
他们可是你们的孩子！ |
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So, this is how you raise your children?! |
你们就是这样教养孩子的？！ |
13:23 |
You’re the little bastards, not my son! |
你们才是小杂种，我儿子才不是呢！ |
13:30 |
No one asked you to bring your problems to this town! |
没有人叫你把你的问题带到我们镇！ |
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You’re going to criticise us about how we raise our children?! |
你还有脸批评我们是怎么教养孩子的？！ |
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Who taught you to jump into bed with every man you meet?! |
是谁教你跟每一个你遇到的男人上床的？！ |
13:50 |
At least I waited to get married until I had kids! |
至少我是等到结了婚才有孩子的！ |
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But not you! |
但你不是！ |
13:56 |
You probably don’t even know who your son’s father is! |
你可能还不知道你儿子的父亲是谁呢！ |
14:15 |
With nowhere else to go, Aunt Sundari and Bambang left Sukorharjo and came to Semarang. |
没有别的地方可去，桑达里阿姨和班邦离开苏科哈，来到了三宝垄 |
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Against my wishes, my mother gave in to Sundari’s? pleas and decided to take them in. |
我母亲不顾我的反对，面对桑达里的祈求心软了，并决定接纳他们 |
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It seemed to me at the time that we had enough problems of our own. |
当时对我来说我们自己的问题似乎已经够多了 |
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Can you take the clothes off the line? |
你能将衣服从绳子上收下来吗？ |
14:58 |
What are you doing here? |
你在这里做什么？ |
15:01 |
I said go away! |
我说给我滚开！ |
15:03 |
Do you know, I hate you! |
你知不知道，我恨你们！ |
15:19 |
Fill up the bucket again. |
再装一桶水 |
15:24 |
Don’t worry. Dini’s watching him. |
别担心，迪尼正看着他 |
16:06 |
Hey, whose diary is that? |
嗨，那是谁的日记？ |
16:09 |
What gives you the right to read someone else’s diary? |
你有什么权力看别人的日记？ |
16:12 |
Bring it here! |
拿过来！ |
16:27 |
When I discovered Aunt Sundari… |
当我发现桑达里阿姨 |
16:30 |
…reading my diary, that was the last straw. |
正在看我的日记时，这就成了导火线 |
16:32 |
I couldn’t believe she would do something like that. |
我相信不了她怎么会做那样的事情 |
16:34 |
While I may have written some cruel things about her and Bambang, they were all true. |
虽然我可能对她和她儿子班邦写了一些刻薄的话，但它们都是事实 |
16:39 |
At least they were true to me. |
至少它们对我来说是事实 |
16:43 |
I told my mother to decide between them and me. |
我告诉我妈在他们和我之间只能选择其一 |
16:51 |
I should have been happy to see Aunt Sundari and Bambang go back to Sukorharjo. |
看到桑达里阿姨和班邦返回苏科哈，我本应该高兴才对 |
16:55 |
But hatred for the two of them began to give way to hatred for someone else – my mother. |
但对他们两人的憎恨开始转嫁到别人身上－我的母亲 |
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I discovered she planned to marry again… |
我发现她打算再婚 |
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…a decision she had made without discussing with the rest of the family. |
她没有跟家里其他人商量就做出的决定 |
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And I began to think – what’s the point in praying five times a day? |
我开始想－一天拜功五次有什么意义？ |
17:19 |
Or not cheating in school? |
考试不作弊又怎样？ |
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What’s the point in restraining myself from sinful things… |
克守自己远离罪恶之事有什么意义呢 … |
17:25 |
…if I won’t be entering heaven anyway because I can’t forgive my mother? |
若我因为不能原谅我母亲就无论如何都进不了天堂？ |
17:31 |
It all made me so angry that I finally came to the conclusion… |
这一切都让我如此愤怒，以至于最后我得出结论 |
17:36 |
…that I didn’t care about religion anymore. |
我不再关心宗教 |
17:40 |
I didn’t care about being polite. |
我不在乎礼貌不礼貌的问题 |
17:43 |
I just wanted to be free. |
我只想要自由 |
17:46 |
I wanted to do what I wanted to do. |
我想要我行我素 |
17:50 |
And I decided nothing was going to get in my way… |
我决定不让任何东西束缚我的生活 |
17:54 |
…including religion. |
包括宗教 |
18:06 |
So, I started to break every rule there was. |
因此，我开始违犯每一条纪律 |
18:09 |
It was my first year of high school. |
这是我高中的第一年 |
18:12 |
I did everything I wanted, but then I came in for some big surprises… |
我想什么就做什么，但一些大的惊心的事情让我醒悟过来 |
18:21 |
Such as seeing one of my friends bleeding on the floor because she had a miscarriage… |
比如看见我的一个朋友因为流产血流满地 |
18:30 |
Or another friend going to jail because he was caught stealing. |
还有一个朋友因为偷窃被抓进监狱 |
18:36 |
I began to ask myself, “Is this really the kind of life I want?” |
我开始自问：“这真的就是我想要的生活吗？” |
18:43 |
Life within the confines of religion hadn’t made me happy… |
宗教禁锢下的生活没有让我快乐 |
18:47 |
…but a free life without rules wasn’t something I wanted either. |
但无规则的自由生活也不是我想要的生活 |
19:00 |
Then came Ramadan, and I found myself turning back to my faith. |
接着斋月来了，我发现自己重拾信仰 |
19:07 |
I began to spend time reading religious books, and praying again. |
我开始花时间阅读宗教书籍，重新做起祷告的功课 |
19:14 |
I read the Qur’an sincerely and felt a great desire to be close to God. |
我真诚地读古兰经，感觉有股接近真主的强烈愿望 |
19:22 |
I truly wanted to find peace. |
我实在是想找到平安 |
19:32 |
I prepared myself for the tahajud prayer. |
我准备好做深夜礼拜 |
19:36 |
I wanted to ask God about many things. |
我想问真主许多事情 |
19:40 |
I had a strong faith that whatever I asked for that night… |
我有强烈的信心，认为无论那天晚上我问什么 |
19:46 |
…God would listen to me and give me his answer. |
真主都会倾听我并给我答案 |
19:55 |
God is great… |
真主至大 |
20:00 |
God is great… |
真主至大 |
20:23 |
I prayed according to the memorized verses. |
我根据记熟的经文祷告 |
20:17 |
Then something in my heart seemed to break, and I cried out to God. |
接着我心里好像有东西爆发出来，我向真主大声哭诉 |
20:21 |
God, in my heart of hearts… |
真主啊，在我内心深处 |
20:28 |
…I want to please you more than anything. |
我想让你欢喜我，这个愿望胜过一切 |
20:23 |
Show me the way, and I’ll follow wherever you lead. |
请为我指明道路，你带领到哪里，我将追随到哪里 |
20:43 |
But if you don’t show me the way tonight… |
但如果你今晚不指明我道路 |
20:50 |
…don’t blame me for what happens… |
就不要责怪会发生的事情 |
20:54 |
…don’t blame me for living the way I choose. |
不要责怪我以我自己选择的道路生活 |
21:01 |
But if you show me who you are and what you want from me… |
但如果你向我表明你是谁和你想我做什么 |
21:10 |
…then I’ll follow you wherever you lead. |
那我会一切遵从你的吩咐 |
21:25 |
At that moment, a bright light began to appear in front of me. |
在那一刻，有一道明亮的白光开始在我面前出现 |
21:31 |
It took the form of a figure, a man in a white robe. |
它呈现出一个人的轮廓，一个身穿白色长袍的男人 |
21:35 |
I couldn’t see the details of this face… |
我看不清他具体的面相 |
21:38 |
…but his presence was somehow calm and reassuring. |
但他的存在镇定和安详 |
21:43 |
And suddenly, without knowing how, I realized he was Jesus. |
突然，不知何故，我知道他是耶稣 |
21:48 |
And he said, “Follow me.” |
他说：“跟随我吧” |
21:52 |
Dini, follow me. |
迪尼，跟随我吧 |
21:55 |
I was very confused because I thought: Lord, I’m a Muslim. |
我非常困惑，因为我想：主啊，我是一个穆斯林 |
21:59 |
How can I follow you? |
我怎么可以跟随你呢？ |
22:02 |
You’re the one people call the God of Christians… |
你是人们称为的基督徒的神 |
22:06 |
…the God of the infidels, who don’t know Allah. |
不认识安拉的异教徒的神 |
22:10 |
And he waited for me to come to him. |
他等着我去走近他 |
22:14 |
Tears began to cover my face, and finally I said “God … |
泪水在我脸上开始流淌，最后我说：“神啊… |
22:19 |
…if this is way of truth, then I want to follow you.” |
如果这就是真理的道路，那我便追随你。” |
22:25 |
At that moment, I felt a peace I had never felt before. |
在那一刻，我感受到了以前从没感受过的平安 |
22:32 |
I saw him smiling, and then he slowly left. |
我看见他微笑着，然后慢慢地离开了 |
22:54 |
I hope I haven’t offended you. |
我希望我没有冒犯到你 |
22:59 |
Whatever happened obviously affected you deeply. |
无论发生什么都明显深深地影响到你 |
23:05 |
I’ll never be the same. |
我从此不再一样了 |
23:07 |
I’ve never been the same since that day. |
从那天起我不再一样了 |
23:12 |
I understand. What happened next? |
我理解，接着怎么样了呢？ |
23:17 |
I began to look for someone who was a Christian. |
我开始寻找基督徒 |
23:20 |
There were none in my village. |
我的村子里没有一个是基督徒 |
23:23 |
But I knew of a Christian family in a village nearby. |
但我认识邻村的一个基督徒家庭 |
23:28 |
They were afraid of me at first because I asked them for a Bible. |
起初他们害怕我，因为我问他们要圣经 |
23:33 |
Eventually, they gave me a Bible and I began to read it. |
最后，他们给了我一本圣经，我开始读了起来 |
23:37 |
I hid everything from my mother, but she found out before long. |
我把一切都在我母亲面前隐瞒，但不久以后她还是发现了 |
23:46 |
Mothers always find out. |
母亲总是能明察秋毫的 |
23:50 |
What did she do? |
她的反应是什么呢？ |
23:53 |
She pleaded with me to change. |
她恳求我回心转意 |
23:57 |
She cried. |
她哭了 |
24:00 |
She thought she had failed as a mother… |
她认为她是一个失败的母亲 |
24:04 |
…that somehow it was all her fault, or that I was angry about her marriage… |
一切似乎都是她的错，或者认为我还在怨恨她的婚姻 |
24:08 |
…you know, trying to get revenge. |
试图以此来报复 |
24:14 |
And the rest of the family? |
家里其他人呢？ |
24:22 |
You’re cursed! |
你这该死的东西！ |
24:23 |
You’re not one of us anymore! |
你不再是我们家的人了！ |
24:25 |
Arif, don’t be so harsh! She needs time to reconsider. |
艾里夫，别这么严厉！她需要时间来重新考虑 |
24:31 |
She’s had plenty of time to reconsider! This has gone far enough! |
她有大把的时间去考虑了！这已经太过分了！ |
24:40 |
I promised God that if he would show me the way, I would follow him. |
我向神许诺，只要他向我指明道路，我就会跟随他 |
24:48 |
I don’t mean to offend anyone here, but I’ve made my decision. |
我并不是有意地要触犯这里的任何人，但我已做出自己的决定 |
24:56 |
Dini, your mother and I have also made our decision. |
迪尼，你母亲和我也做出了我们的决定 |
25:02 |
As Muslims, and as Javanese, our responsibility is to raise our children. |
作为穆斯林，作为爪哇人，我们的责任就是抚养我们的孩子 |
25:12 |
The obligation of children is to respect and obey their parents. |
孩子的义务就是尊重并服从于他们的父母 |
25:24 |
If you choose to go your own way in this matter of religion… |
如果在宗教上你选择走自己的路的话 |
25:31 |
…then you must be responsible for your own life. |
那你必须为你自己的生活负责 |
25:39 |
That means you have to find your own money for everything… |
这就是说你必须自力更生，一切靠你自己 |
25:48 |
…food, school, a place to live. Everything! |
食物、上学、住处，一切！ |
25:57 |
Dini, what your uncle means is that you no longer have the right… |
迪尼，你叔叔的意思是你不再有权利 |
26:06 |
…to ask your parents for anything. |
问你的父母要任何东西 |
26:11 |
Now, get your things and leave. |
现在，收拾东西走人吧 |
26:22 |
Hurry up! |
快点！ |
26:51 |
I don’t know where the strength came from, but I left home… |
我不知道从哪里来的力量，但我离开了家 |
26:58 |
…and moved to another city named Solo. |
辗转到了另一个叫索罗的城市 |
27:03 |
I was sixteen years old. |
当时我十六岁 |
27:09 |
I rented a room and began to go to school to become a social worker. |
我租了一个房间，开始上学想成为一名社会工作者 |
27:17 |
I had already completed my first year of studies while in Semarang. |
在三宝垄的时候我已经完成了第一年的学习 |
27:21 |
The school administration in Solo… |
索罗的学校管理部门 |
27:25 |
…thought I was a transfer student and accepted me without any questions. |
认为我是一个转校生，毫无问题地接受了我入学 |
27:30 |
I found a part-time job after school and managed to get by. |
我找了一份放学后的兼职，想方设法地过日子 |
27:36 |
I figured if something went wrong, I could always go to my grandmother for help. |
我想如果有什么不测，我总还可以到我外祖母那里寻求帮助 |
27:48 |
I spent three years in Solo. |
我在索罗度过了三年时光 |
27:53 |
I returned home for visits every so often. |
我也时常回家看看 |
27:59 |
When I graduated from school, I eventually found a job in Semarang. |
当我高中毕业之后，终于在三宝垄找到了一份工作 |
28:05 |
When I moved back, it was difficult at first. |
我回来的那段日子，起初非常艰难 |
28:09 |
But eventually things got back to normal. |
但事情终于回复正常 |
28:17 |
Well, that’s a relief. |
不错，那是一种解脱 |
28:19 |
I guess it’s behind you now. |
我想现在对你而言都过去了 |
28:22 |
It must have been a struggle for them to forgive. |
对他们来说要原谅你必定经过了一番挣扎 |
28:26 |
Actually, I was the one who struggled the most. |
实际上，我是挣扎最激烈的一个 |
28:32 |
I thought Christians are supposed to forgive. |
我想基督徒是应该要宽恕的 |
28:37 |
They are. |
是的 |
28:39 |
But it can be a long distance… |
但是有很长一段距离 |
28:43 |
…from here… |
从这里 |
28:47 |
…to here. |
到这里 |
28:54 |
- Come in and have a seat. |
－进来坐坐吧 |
28:59 |
You look exhausted. |
你看起来疲惫不堪 |
29:01 |
I’m worried more than tired. |
我担心的不光是疲惫的问题 |
29:04 |
I thought if we moved back here, Bambang would change. |
我想如果我们搬回到这里，班邦可能会改变一些 |
29:09 |
If you see him now, he just sits in his room most of the time… |
如果你现在去看他，他要么整天呆在房间里 |
29:13 |
…or he’s walking the streets. |
要不就在街上瞎逛 |
29:15 |
That’s not good. He needs to find a job. |
那样可不好，他需要找份工作 |
29:20 |
But what can he do? He’s only been through the ninth grade. |
但他能做什么呢？他只读到九年级 |
29:26 |
He doesn’t have a trade. |
他又没有一门手艺 |
29:29 |
I’m sure something will turn up. |
我相信会有一条出路的 |
29:32 |
Let me give you some food to take home with you. |
我拿点食物给你带回家吧 |
29:46 |
Peace to you. |
愿你平安 |
29:59 |
And peace to you. |
愿你平安 |
30:00 |
Hi, I am Dini. |
嗨，我是迪尼 |
30:04 |
Dini? |
迪尼？ |
30:06 |
Yes, it’s me, Dini. Is your mother home? |
是的，我就是迪尼，你母亲在家吗？ |
30:12 |
Yes, she is. |
是的，在 |
30:20 |
Mom, Dini is here. |
妈妈，迪尼来了 |
30:25 |
Dini? |
迪尼？ |
30:34 |
Please, have a seat. |
请，请坐 |
30:36 |
Do you want something to drink? |
你想喝点什么吗？ |
30:39 |
Please don’t trouble yourself. |
请不要麻烦了 |
30:43 |
A few days ago, I overheard a conversation between you and Mom. |
几天前，我偷听到你跟我妈的谈话 |
30:51 |
I…I can’t handle it. |
我…我不知如何是好 |
30:56 |
I’m so sorry. I’ve treated you so badly. |
我真对不起你们，我曾经这么恶毒地对待你们 |
31:04 |
Forgive me. |
请原谅我 |
31:06 |
- It’s alright, Dini. |
－没事了，迪尼 |
31:14 |
Please forgive me. |
请原谅我 |
31:19 |
Forgive me for the mean things I’ve done to both of you. |
原谅我对你们两个做过的那些卑鄙的事情 |
31:27 |
I’m so sorry. |
我真的很对不起 |
31:30 |
It’s alright, Dini. I’ve already forgiven you. |
没事的，迪尼，我已经原谅你了 |
31:56 |
Bambang came back with me to Jakarta. |
班邦跟我回到雅加达 |
31:59 |
When we got settled, I gave him money to start a small business… |
我们安顿之后，我给了他一些钱做点小生意 |
32:03 |
…selling shoes at the market. |
在市场上卖鞋 |
32:06 |
After three months, he began to make a profit and didn’t need… |
三个月之后，他能赚点钱了 |
32:12 |
…money from me anymore. |
不再需要从我这里拿钱了 |
32:17 |
Where is he now? |
他现在在哪里？ |
32:20 |
In Jakarta doing well. |
在雅加达，干得不错 |
32:24 |
I always cry at happy endings. |
看到幸福的结局我总是想哭 |
32:29 |
But that’s not the ending. |
但那还不是结局 |
32:35 |
So, what is the ending? |
那结局是什么呢？ |
32:35 |
Something better? |
还有更好的结局吗？ |
32:37 |
Oh, much better. |
噢，好多了 |
32:40 |
You see, there was still one person I needed to forgive. |
你看，还有一个人需要我去原谅 |
32:43 |
Your uncle? The one who slapped you? |
你叔叔？掴你耳光的那个叔叔？ |
32:46 |
He wouldn’t have been so quick with his hands if I’d been around. |
要是我在场，他的手就不会那么快就打下去 |
32:49 |
No, no. I forgave him a long time ago. It was my father. |
不，不，我很久以前就原谅他了，我指的是我父亲 |
32:55 |
Your father? |
你父亲？ |
32:57 |
But he died when you were a young girl. |
但当你还是个小女孩的时候他就去世了 |
33:00 |
Exactly. |
不错 |
33:02 |
And left me with all the confused thoughts… |
是他给我留下了这所有的困惑 |
33:09 |
…and bitterness… |
和辛酸 |
33:13 |
…to sort things out on my own. |
靠我自己处理一切 |
33:19 |
And now you’ve forgiven him. |
现在你原谅了他 |
33:24 |
When did that happen? |
是什么时候的？ |
33:28 |
Just now. |
刚刚 |
33:39 |
Do you see that cemetery across the way? |
你看见铁路对面的墓地吗？ |
33:45 |
Yes, I see it. |
是的，我看见了 |
33:48 |
My father is buried there. |
我父亲就埋葬在那里 |
33:53 |
Until this train stopped a short while ago… |
这列火车刚才停下来的那一刻前 |
33:59 |
…my unforgiveness was buried there, too. |
我对他的怨恨也埋葬在那儿 |
34:10 |
But God, because he is the God of love… |
但神，因为祂是爱的神 |
34:14 |
…couldn’t let me have it my way. |
不允许我再怨恨下去 |
34:24 |
He says that if we want our sins forgiven… |
祂说如果我们想让我们的罪得到宽恕 |
34:29 |
…then we must forgive those who have sinned against us. |
那我们必须宽恕那些得罪过我们的人 |
34:33 |
As I’ve been telling you my story… |
当我在给你讲述我的故事的时候 |
34:43 |
…I’ve been thinking back on how much my father really did love me. |
我就一直回想其实我父亲是多么的爱我 |
34:55 |
We had good times, you know… |
我们有过快乐时光 |
34:59 |
…wonderful times, and I need to remember that. |
美好时光，我必须记得 |
35:06 |
It’s as if God stopped the train just for you. |
似乎神专门为你而让火车停下的 |
35:11 |
I’ve been thinking about that. |
我也在想这个问题 |
35:15 |
You speak as if you know him. |
你说起来好像你认识祂 |
35:20 |
As if God is your best friend. |
好像神是你最好的朋友一样 |
35:24 |
He told me to follow him. |
祂告诉我跟随祂 |
35:29 |
I haven’t always known where he’s taking me… |
我并不总是知道祂将把我带向哪里 |
35:35 |
…but I know I can trust him to take me where I need to go. |
但我知道我可以信任祂，祂会把我带到我需要去的地方 |
36:06 |
We’re moving. |
我们在动了 |
36:09 |
We’re moving. |
我们在动了 |
36:11 |
Yes, we’re moving. |
是的，我们在动了 |
36:13 |
And they didn’t turn off the air-conditioning! |
而且他们没有关冷气！ |
36:16 |
No, they didn’t. |
没有 |
36:19 |
I guess the story is over now. |
我想故事现在该告一段落了 |
36:24 |
Or…just beginning. |
或者…才刚刚开始呢 |
36:28 |
Does this one have a happy ending? |
这个故事有一个幸福的结局吗？ |
36:31 |
You’ll have to tell me… |
你得告诉我 |
36:48 |
When people we hold in high regard let us down, we feel disappointed. |
当我们心目中很尊敬的人辜负了我们的时候，我们会感到失望 |
36:55 |
We become disillusioned because they fail to meet our expectations. |
我们会觉得灰心，因为他们未能满足我们的期望 |
37:04 |
Worse yet, we can become bitter. |
然而更遭的是，我们可能变得苦毒 |
37:09 |
The more important the person is in our life, the greater the disappointment. |
那个人在我们生命中越重要，那失望也越大 |
37:16 |
Young Dini rationalized that she had every right to be bitter… |
年轻的迪尼理所当然地认为她有足够的权利去苦毒 |
37:25 |
Angry and bitter toward her parents… |
去愤恨她的父母 |
37:29 |
…toward her Aunt Sundari and her half-brother Bambang… |
愤恨她的桑达里阿姨和她同父异母的弟弟班邦 |
37:34 |
…angry even toward God. |
甚至愤恨神 |
37:37 |
Then she had a remarkable transformation. |
然后她有了一个显著的转变 |
37:41 |
Seeking to know God’s will for her life, and determined to follow him… |
极力地想知道神给她的生命旨意是什么，并决定跟随祂 |
37:47 |
…wherever he might lead, she had a vision of Jesus. |
无论祂带领她到哪里；那时她有了一个耶稣的异象 |
37:54 |
In a way we cannot understand as human beings… |
以一种我们常人无法理解的方式 |
37:59 |
…Jesus appeared in her bedroom, extended his hand to her and said: |
耶稣出现在她的卧室，向她伸出手，说道 |
38:07 |
“Follow me.” |
“跟随我” |
38:08 |
Coming to Jesus is a wonderful first step, but as the real-life Dini told us… |
走向耶稣是奇妙的第一步，但如迪尼的真实生命告诉我们的那样 |
38:17 |
…our life on earth is a journey with twists and turns. |
我们的在地上的生命就像一场充满着曲折和拐点的行程 |
38:23 |
There are unscheduled stops and many lessons along the way. |
一路上会有意料之外的停顿和许多的教训 |
38:28 |
When we are trusting in Jesus, like Dini, we follow him wherever he leads… |
当我们信靠耶稣的时候，就像迪尼，我们就跟随祂，祂带到哪里我们就跟到哪里 |
38:36 |
…and do whatever he asks. |
祂叫我们做什么，我们就做什么 |
38:39 |
For Dini, there were many paths to be taken. |
对迪尼而言，有许多的道路要走 |
38:42 |
As she progressed in her Christian walk, she realized… |
当她行在基督里的时候，她意识到 |
38:48 |
…that one road in particular needed to be traveled more thoroughly… |
有一条路特别需要更加彻底地去走 |
38:53 |
…the road of forgiveness. |
那就是宽恕之路 |
38:57 |
It was not a road easily taken, but Dini made the journey enabled by love. |
那不是一条容易走的路，但迪尼藉着爱走了这程 |
39:06 |
Not just any love, but the love of God –unconditional love. |
不是藉着任何的爱，而是藉着神那样无条件的爱 |
39:13 |
The apostle Paul writes about this love in 1 Corinthians 13. |
使徒保罗在哥林多前书13章中写出了这种爱 |
39:18 |
He says it is patient and kind. |
他说爱是恒久忍耐，又有恩慈 |
39:21 |
It is not easily angered and keeps no record of wrongs. |
不轻易发怒，不计算人的恶 |
39:25 |
It believes all things, hopes all things, bears all things. |
凡事包容，凡事相信，凡事盼望，凡事忍耐 |
39:32 |
It is a love that never fails. |
爱是永不止息 |
39:35 |
This is the love Dini was seeking, even when she was lost. |
这就是迪尼要寻求的爱，甚至当她在迷失的时候 |
39:40 |
She needed this love to endure rejection from her family. |
她需要这样的爱来忍耐来自家庭的拒绝 |
39:47 |
She needed it to forgive those who had harmed her most – especially her father. |
她需要这样的爱来原谅那些深深伤害她的人－尤其是她的父亲 |
39:55 |
This is the kind of love the heavenly Father has for you. |
这种爱就是天上的父对你的那种爱 |
40:00 |
He loves you just as you are. |
祂爱你的本相 |
40:03 |
When Dini cried out to God to show her the way… |
当迪尼向神哭求要祂指明道路的时候 |
40:07 |
…she had no idea that Jesus would come to her in a vision of the night… |
她并没有料到耶稣会当晚在一个异象中向她走来 |
40:12 |
…revealing his glory and overwhelming her with his love and tenderness. |
启示祂的荣耀，并用祂的爱和亲切来征服她 |
40:17 |
Yet, that’s what happened. |
但，那就是所发生的事 |
40:20 |
Jesus may, or may not, come to you in a dream or vision. |
耶稣可能会－或者可能不会－在梦境中或异象中走近你 |
40:28 |
The point is this: God loves you. |
最关键的是：神爱你 |
40:33 |
He wants you to be his child through faith in Jesus Christ. |
通过信耶稣基督，祂想让你做祂的孩子 |
40:41 |
He wants you to come into his family, so that when the journey of your life comes to an end… |
祂想让你走进祂的家，以致当你的生命旅程划上句号的时候 |
40:48 |
…you will live with him forever in heaven. |
你将永远跟祂一起住在天堂 |
40:52 |
Are you ready to open your heart to him as Dini did? |
你准备像迪尼那样向祂敞开心扉吗？ |
40:57 |
If you want to receive Jesus as your Saviour, say these words with me: |
如果你想接受耶稣做你的救主，请跟我?这些： |
41:07 |
Lord, I believe in Jesus. |
主啊，我相信耶稣 |
41:11 |
I accept Jesus as my God and Saviour. |
我接受耶稣为我的神和救主 |
41:16 |
Forgive my sins and make me your child. |
请宽恕我的罪，把我当成你的孩子 |
41:21 |
Thank you in the name of Jesus. Amen. |
奉耶稣的名感谢你，阿门 |
41:27 |
You have now received eternal life with God. You are one of his children. |
你现在已经领受了与神同在的永生，你成为祂的一个孩子了 |
41:35 |
Praise God. |
赞美神 |